It’s got to that time in my uni life where I sit back and think wow I’ve been here a long time. I’ve been in a bit of a funk for a while now, probably since the start of the year, and at first I just put it down to exam stress, but as exams finished and I had a whole week off uni, have began semester 2 and I’m still in this weird headspace that I’ve not actually experienced ever before. I’m usually very excited to start my new modules (probably because new stationery, time to begin making super neat notes which will last for 2 weeks etc etc) and I can’t actually think of a time when I haven’t, so I’m very confused as to why I’m feeling this way. The workload hasn’t fully kicked in yet so I can’t really put it down to stress, but all I can say is that I’m exhausted 90% of the time, I’m not really enthusiastic/excited for much and I just have 0 motivation to do anything uni or health related. In other words, I wanna sit in bed and eat ben and jerry’s all day every day. This weekend I went home and had time to reflect on the way I am feeling and create a positive outlook on it. I’ve put it down to only having a few months left at uni, I have a lot of anxiety about what is going to happen once the uni chapter of my life ends, and as there aren’t a huge opportunities of grad schemes and internships in the career I want to pursue then I kind of feel like I haven’t been able to be pro-active about this anxiety so I kind of feel like I’m sat in anxious limbo the majority of the time stressing about the possibility of not getting a job. Not getting a job is a slight overreaction, I mean more not getting a job in the field that I really want to work in. I’ve decided to use this space as a way to outline the ways in which I am going to attempt to get myself out of this funk in hope that it might help someone else (I know a lot of my other 3rd year friends are experiencing similar things).
- Work on my career goals: I figured that working on my CV, learning more about the publishing industry, constantly keeping up to date with interning opportunities, will hopefully keep me feeling pro-active in this time where I feel anxious but also quite helpless. It’ll all contribute to a goal and make getting a job at the end of uni a much less daunting task.
- Take more time to myself: I think one of my problems is definitely stressing 24/7 even when I’m actively having a day away from my uni work, hopefully if I consciously make an effort to take time away from the stress it’ll help when I come back to my work to be more motivated.
- Persevere: Although taking time to yourself is a good thing, taking too much time would be quite irresponsible of me considering I only have a few months of uni left. I currently need to persevere and force myself to do the reading even when it seems daunting, because I’ll thank myself and save so much stress later down the line.
- Organisation & Scheduling: Nothing motivates me more than a good scheduling sesh, I have decided to take time on Sundays (its in my schedule) to schedule my week ahead so it motivates me to stick to it and do all my work for the week especially as this term is a busy one!
Apologies for the slightly negative and rambly post, next one will be a bit more positive and studious I promise!