Okay, so it’s currently 00:29 and I’m sitting on my bed thinking that I should definitely update my blog today. Problem is, I don’t want to write about the obvious went-back-home-for-the-Easter-holidays and lots-of-chocolate-can’t-stop-eating or even the so-many-essays-so-little-time stuff so here I am, completely blank. Should I write about my thoughts and concerns? Should I dedicate this post entirely for my cat? I probably should cause she’s one of a kind 😛 Her name’s Sandy (I named her after that Japanese tv series if anyone remembers, “Hello! Sandybell”. I used to watch it as a kid, google it you might remember it) and anyway I need to point out her age. She’s currently 17 years old, yup she’s that old. I got her when I was only 4 I even got pictures of us when we were both babies, we grew up together and ever since I left home for studying abroad (I’m from Cyprus btw) I miss her like crazy. For 17 years old she’s doing perfect, we take her to the vet regularly and I spent most of my time with her when I visit home for holidays and summer. The only thing that saddens me is because she’s so old her teeth sort of don’t work the best, so she needs to take a tiny pill everyday with her food so she can chew without feeling any pain. But she’s doing just fine and she’s like my best friend 😀
I was out this afternoon with a few of my old classmates from my undergraduate degree, we went for a coffee to catch up and most of them started working as English teachers already so I get to hear their point of view since I will be in their position hopefully, next year. Don’t get me wrong I am beyond excited to start doing what I love and learnt all these years at the university but I would be lying if I said that I’m not nervous or anxious. I feel like the anxiety for getting a job and going back to the ‘real world’ is increasing day by day. Sure, every beginning is hard but it’s making me so anxious because I think about all the different scenarios and possibilities. What if I don’t find the job that I want? What if I’m not good at it? What if it turns out to be something completely different than what I imagine? All these questions go through my mind every time I think about my future, typing everything out helps me release some stress. If I share these thoughts of mine with my mum or dad they will probably start lecturing me that I need to believe in myself, to be confident and positive and that I shouldn’t be scared because I can do it. It’s nice to hear that sometimes from people that you love and love you back, however unless I get myself and go out there into the ‘real world’ I would never stop feeling scared and anxious. The key is not only to have awareness of the difficulties that life throws at you, but also to be sincere and determined to fight back and get what you deserve.
I feel like I’ve taken this post into an emotional level, I don’t want to tire you up. I bought this book recently and I’ve started reading it and I think that’s the reason I’ve grown all these thoughts and beliefs about life. I definitely recommend it by the way, it’s called Living, Loving and Learning by Leo Buscaglia.
Alright, I’m gonna leave you now since my laptop is at 7% and that requires some effort to move from my bed to the other side of the room and plug in the charger 😛 I hope I raised some issues or shared some thoughts that many of you have as well. Let me know in the comments below 🙂