Man, this is hard work

I am not going to reveal anything revolutionary here. But doing my thesis is a lot harder than I expected. Well, this is not entirely true. I expected to be a challenge mentally, but now it is also a challenge on a whole new level.

As a seasoned journalist, I know that the best inspiration is a looming deadline. And the deadline for my first 5000-word long essay is getting closer and closer.

So after the first baby steps, I decided to put pedal to the metal and do some really earnest writing. And I failed. Badly. I have a Kindle, a tablet, one ebook on another computer and two ebooks on this one, plus some books, real books. Now everything is very neatly ordered in my head. But I just can’t make it work on paper (in OpenOffice Writing – but you know what I meant). There’s a first for everyone. After six books (one of them in English), several dozen articles (some of them were written in English and at least two were published in peer-reviewed magazines) I have writer’s block. Hopefully by the end of this week, I will be able to overcome it. I know the reason: this whole PhD thing is overwhelming. I need to get a very firm grip on my subject, otherwise I get fearful again and just panic.

Return here same time, next week to see whether poor little me stopped whining and did what he was supposed to do.