Hello guys! I’m back in Leicester from my Easter break back home, which didn’t last very long to be honest. I had to come back and start working again on my dissertation, as the deadline is approaching!
But before I talk to you about that, I wanted to write about something that happened before term was over and that was really important to me. I got my PS3000 essay back. I don’t think I ever told you what my last essay was on, let me quickly fix that. It was on “authentic behaviour”, i.e. the idea that some behaviours, though carried out by us, do not represent our personality and can therefore create a sense of uneasiness, which in the long run can cause permanent emotional disturbances. Now, the essay question asked us to provide an update on current definitions of Authentic Behaviour, based on how it had been associated with emotion regulation, self-monitoring and impression management.
When I first approached the question, one thing really bothered me. Namely, it was the idea that there had to be something like an “inauthentic behaviour”!
So I did something either very brave or very stupid. I interpreted the question my own way, using those three behavioural phenomena to argue the influence of the social world on behaviour, and question the very essence of what I was supposed to report about. In hindsight, it was so risky!
But I thought my argument was valid, and you know what? It paid off. I got a first in my essay!
The best feeling was knowing that my marker had realised what I was attempting to achieve, and despite not engaging with the question directly, they appreciated my originality and recognised the validity of my argument. That meant so much to me! 😀
It was my last essay as an undergraduate student, and it represented something University has taught me. Unlike high school, being at university is not just a matter or learning stuff and copy it down on a piece of paper. Knowledge is not absolute, and you’re not just an empty box that needs filling. There is so much more of YOU that can be expressed! You are asked to understand, to engage, to interpret, to manipulate, and to create knowledge! You won’t be shot down for your ideas. They will merely be weighted for what they are, and if they’re good, you’ll be rewarded.
I’m so thankful for the opportunity to realise that my ideas and opinions are valued.